We had a full timetable of events this weekend, it’s my sister’s birthday tomorrow, so yesterday we all met up for a family meal at a curry house in Bil’s village. It was quite a subdued event, I think it was our first normal event without Katrin iyswim, and I can’t have been the only [...]
At the weekend I found a diary that I kept for around 18 months in the late 90s. It details a relationship or two, a job or two, my state of mind, and most particularly, at least to my state of mind tonight, it details the evening when I called my parents’ house to find [...]
another car load of stuff.
I don’t think of us as particularly materialistic (stop sniggering at the back there) yet the amount of stuff is phenomenal, granted a lot of it is books, or things I should have got rid of but haven’t, but even so. Today I bagged up another bag of rubbish [...]
For the first time that I noticed today, I thought ‘my sister had epilepsy’ rather than ‘my sister has epilepsy’. I still wake up occasionally forgetting that she’s gone, but at some points of the day, she’s moved to my past. I’m sure that this is a healthy change, but I’m also sure you’ll forgive [...]
BBC NEWS | Health | Warning of epilepsy drowning risk
People with epilepsy are up to 19 times more likely to drown than those in the general population, research suggests.
A University College London review of 51 studies from around the world showed 88 deaths where five would be expected, adding many could have been prevented.
Taking showers [...]
Quite worrying that before I post I have to read the last post to work out what we’ve been doing…
I can’t actually remember Saturday terribly well. Ah yes. Big made her first purse out of the wool we’d bought on Friday, so we went down to the shop again to buy some more of a [...]
I went down to old house yesterday and did some more clearing - brought back yet more stuff to litter this house with Actually, I am hoping to be offloading some stuff that we don’t want any more, but I’ll put that in another post.
After I’d cleared our bedroom pretty much, and stacked more [...]
Last week it was very wet and dreary for August, so A bought a Wii for holiday club, which at least meant the children were active and happy rather than just drooping around the place. Then as they are away this week, I’ve brought the Wii home - I’ll take it back to school next [...]
In blogging. I will regret that if I don’t catch up a little as it will be a week I can’t remember. So some highlights, or at least memory prompts.
Walking - I’ve walked to friend’s house to feed her cat 5 times, but not Thursday as it was really rather wet. I feel good about [...]
So we provided one.
He wasn’t this sad throughout the whole day, this was because of the sticks in the ground - they were for rounders, but he felt it was deeply wrong to shove things into the ground, and I had to remonstrate to get him to leave them there. On some levels, he’s probably [...]
Coped with my day in charge on Friday - last hour was the toughest when we couldn’t find the padlock or keys to lock up the sheds! Got home in time for curry and cake with Lily and her bloke, late celebration of her birthday. Couldn’t stay the pace though and keeled into bed [...]
done. And home again. Big is playing chess with Tim, and Small is learning backgammon from me (his choice) except he’s gone for a comfort break.
It’s been a very long day and I have a stinking headache - I may be back later, but if not I just wanted to say thank you to everyone [...]
K rang tonight to find out if I had chosen/ decided on a reading. I said there’s a little poem, just about 12 lines I was thinking of, and she cried down the phone at me, as it’s the poem she would like to be able to read, but knows perfectly well that she won’t [...]
Small wanted me to read a book to him today at school - something that doesn’t happen very often. He chose What Colour Is Love? about an elephant, small and grey, trying to find out what colour love is. It somehow seemed apposite to my day as I’d spent much of it pondering whether I [...]
Stayed in bed late this morning, which sadly didn’t appear to make much difference to my level of tiredness or my headache. Felt unsettled this morning - today was the first day I hadn’t arranged to go anywhere or do anything, although I had invited b-i-l to bring Princess and Scott over in the afternoon, [...]
I keep thinking I’ve cried about enough and then someone says something nice, or I catch the eye of another member of the family and I’m crying all over again. Then again, we did difficult things today - went to the funeral home and saw the body in a coffin. I really didn’t want to [...]
it was apparent that both staff and children had missed me - not least when several told me so. I had to ask various parents (who know) not to be too kind as that’s when I wobble and cry, and other than that, the morning was fairly straightforward. We watered plants (it’s amazing how long [...]
I’ve never had sympathy cards before - guess I should be pleased about that. Today I dropped the kids off and was given two - this was after one of the members of staff made me cry by hugging me over the fence. A took one look as I opened the door and said “you’re [...]
so I’ve spent most of the day with them. Finding it very tough - I’m not close to my family, which is just one of those things that has happened over the years - and I’m tired. Difficult conversations about funerals and songs, flowers or charities and phonecalls to be made to extended family.
All kids [...]
said Big to me tonight, tearfully, cuddling me.
And she’s right. It’s been a rollercoaster so far, and we’re only half way through. We’ve spent the day with my other sisters, Katrin’s husband and her children, all treading gently around each other, sniffling, talking about nothing really except the twaddle on tv and the children. It’s [...]