Goodbye year.
If I were to choose a word for the year, and I’ve been trying, it would be afraid. For a number of reasons, I’ve been treading water, going nowhere fast.
It’s not really a way to live a life.
When you are afraid, you don’t grow, or explore, or make. You just get by. You go through the motions, do what is necessary. People might not be able to tell you are afraid from the outside, you might just seem quiet. Or tired. Or ill.
But I have been afraid. Afraid of my mind, during the whole autism diagnosis process. (Am I normal, am I not? Who am I? Will I change? ). Afraid of my body after the fit that wasn’t a fit. (Epilepsy? Not? )
Afraid to make changes, afraid to make decisions. So very tired of being afraid.
I’m saying goodbye to the fear.
I’m choosing that in 2015 I will allow myself to Dream and then I will make the changes and take the decisions to make my dreams come true.
What’s your word?
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