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Tim popped up to the not quite local branch library and picked up The New Complete Book of Self-Sufficiency: The Classic Guide for Realists and Dreamers. I’m fairly sure that under these descriptions I’d be the dreamer, and he’s the realist, it’s how we marry up those differing realities that count.

I have so many dreams that I’d like to realise, and I’m gradually coming to the conclusion that one of them is not to be, but I will regroup and we will think of another way forward. It’s been ever such a tough year, and I think it’s taken it out of all of us, and is still doing so in one way or another – I’m going to very gently try to redirect myself this week, although I know that more than anything, I just need to heal. I can’t believe how weak and wobbly I feel, and especially after sleeping for about 15 hours! Still, I must have needed it.

Big and I have managed, between us, to sew up the second side of lining for the second purse that needs lining. That means there is another one unlined, and another on her loom that needs to be finished. She also stopped wailing for a couple of minutes and listened long enough to realise that I do know how she feels and what she is going through, and hopefully understand that I do love her and I want to help. I have absolutely no doubt that I will have to say it all over again tomorrow, and the day after and the day after that, but I can hope that eventually it will go in, and the volume level of the house will drop. Hopefully before Small decides that screaming, wailing, stamping, stropping and slamming is the way you are supposed to talk to parents (especially the meanest ones in the world, we are told) and takes over :/

I’m also racking my brains trying to remember the title of a journal that I remember seeing on a blog somewhere. It was one of these inspire creativity workbook type things, and I’d like to find it, I feel that my personal creativity is lulling and could do with some inspiration. I’m going to make myself some small and simple things to try to recharge – I’ve already made some handwarmers (they can’t be called mittens as I ran out of wool before I made the bit for the thumb. I did of course then find the second ball this morning, but I don’t really want to break into it just to make thumb shapes, I was thinking of making a matching scarf, as I don’t think one ball is enough to make a hat, is it?) and I need to take pictures of them and add to ravelry, as at the moment, it looks like I’ve done nothing for over a year. There are the various mobile phone covers I made as well, although the crochet one appears to have run away, so I can’t photograph that one 🙁

Sigh. I don’t know how I got to here. I was trying my best, and I guess it just wasn’t quite the right thing to be doing. Hm. A week to recharge, and then pick myself up and start all over again.