Not very patiently.
This post is going to be all about me and baby stuff, so if you’re looking for home ed or politics, you probably want to pop off to my archives 😉
Baby is due on Tues. I’ve been hoping for it to come early for a while now, mainly due to the discomfort, but birth partner L has been ill and has an appt in Yorkshire on Monday, so I’m now hoping for Mon eve or later. Despite this, I’ve started on the raspberry tea, I figure it’s not going to make me pop instantly is it?
The physio sorted my back out a while ago, but now I’m in pain again, although oddly, this time, it’s mainly focussed on the right hand side sciatic nerve. I’m taking this as a good sign as it implies whatever she sorted out with my pelvis is still sorted. (See, I can do silver linings 🙂 ) Actually, I think the pain now is just related to having this ridiculous 2 stone weight dangling off my front. It really is the most peculiar thing. I’ve barely swollen this time – my feet don’t quite fit into my admittedly snug at the best of times DMs and my fingers are a little sore each morning, but overall I’m probably not carrying a great deal more than the baby and directly associated weight. Even my rib cage hasn’t gone out like normal – each time previously my nursing bras have been a size larger than my normal ones and then up a few cups, this time I’ve just gone up a lot of cups 😉
My biggest problem right now (apart from the not being able to bend down to pick up anything from the floor) is with mood. I’m grouchy. Grumpy. Short tempered. Probably part of it is lack of sleep – sleep is difficult when you have to wake up to turn over, and you have to turn over regularly or you get pain down the bump. Some of it may just be feeling useless – I really can’t walk very far or fast now, and I’m struggling to settle to anything. And maybe some of it is hormonal or stress related down to the impending birth – I know ppl say you forget the pain as soon as you see the baby, but I’m sorry, I don’t. And I don’t think I have bad births, I think I’ve been amazingly fortunate with two easy and relatively painless births, but that makes me more concerned that my luck may have run out and this could be the doozy.
Pathetic, I know. But I’m not actually fond of pain, even though by all accounts I’m reasonably good at managing it. Haven’t had any hypnotherapy updates this time around either though – really, really wish that the guy who did it the first time had published his research, but I’ve searched and searched and can’t find it, so I assume he didn’t. I’d have thought it would have been quite groundbreaking, given that his course of hypnosis resulted in lots of women needing much reduced pain relief, having quicker births and better recoveries. (That’s what he told me after the feedback session anyway.)
Oh well. This post isn’t really going anywhere, so it’s probably time to stop. I’m just waiting for baby.
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