When I saw the prompt for week 30 of the gallery, I knew what I needed to post.

There’s this pic of my girls:

my daughters
last christmas

And there’s a fairly dreadful shot from way back when of us girls.

spot the difference

This is what I think of when I think of the girls. Us, as children. We were the girls, four of us – can you tell which one is me? It’s a part of my identity, being one of four.

Here’s another pic of one of my sisters that I adore.

just born

I don’t think she’d be very happy with me posting it tbh, but then again, who looks at their best just after giving birth? That’s my youngest sister, Katrin. She can’t argue with me about posting it though, because she died a little while back.

Sharp intake of breath. A while ago. If I close my eyes I can hear the phone ringing, can transport myself to the hospital bedside, can touch her cold hand. I can’t actually remember if I did touch her hand, but it seems like I did.

So, I was one of four and now somehow I’m not. How does that work then? Still feels like I should be one of four, even if I can’t reach out to her any more.

So that’s my take on the girls. Sorry it isn’t very cheery 🙁 I’ll finish with another lovely picture to cheer us all up.

daughters in the sun


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8 responses to “The girls”

  1. HelenHaricot avatar
    HelenHaricot

    lovely pics of your girls, and yes, I know which one is you. hugs for Katrin.
    I find the hardest thing now is answering whether i have brothers or sisters. i did have a sister, once :(, but like katrin, she died. my girls tell me i can’t count her, so that i am now an only child. i think they are wrong. i will always have a sister, even if she is now only in heart and spirit rather than flesh. SO by that premise, you are still one of 4 girls x x

    1. your girls are wrong, you do indeed have a sister. And yes, I think I am one of four, but it makes it a difficult question to answer if you aren’t wanting to get into long details.
      And hugs for you. Loads and loads of hugs for you.

  2. How utterly heartbreaking. But it’s wonderful that you still feel part of a foursome. That being separated from your sister hasn’t diminished her place in your family.
    Thanks so much for sharing x
    .-= Tara´s last blog ..The Gallery- Week 31 – with prizes! =-.

    1. @Tara thanks for dropping by to comment. Yes, Katrin still has a huge place in our family, not least in that we’ve got her children to remember her by.

  3. You really are still one of four, Jax. Twenty five years since our four became three and yet I know that my brothers would say the same as I do – we are a group of four siblings.

    1. @Allie 25 years. That’s some length of time. But I’m beginning to realise that in some ways time doesn’t change anything. Not the most vital parts anyway.

  4. I was felt with such both joy and sadness with reading this. I know it was a couple of years and Im late with saying this but I am sorry for your loss. I’ve never lost anyone close to me so I can not imagine the pain that you went through.
    Those photos of your girlies is gorgeous , they are both adorable!! 🙂 x

  5. @Emma thanks. I don’t think we can ever imagine anyone else’s pain anyway, no matter what we’ve gone through, it’s all so individual.
    And yes, they are utterly scrumptious aren’t they?

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