Sympathy cards.

I’ve never had sympathy cards before – guess I should be pleased about that. Today I dropped the kids off and was given two – this was after one of the members of staff made me cry by hugging me over the fence. A took one look as I opened the door and said “you’re not staying” – I had thought that I was pretty together, but I’m not. I sobbed on her shoulder over a cup of tea, then left the kids to it and went off to spend another day with the rest of the family.

Without ready made playmates Princess needed more attention – we had another game of draughts, which I worked very hard at to not obviously throw and keep her interest. Sitting in the sun with a five year old, not such a bad way to spend a morning, though slightly more difficult with the picture of her dead mother next to us smiling on. We saw a pair of butterflies dancing as well, which was very lovely, but complicated rather by J (next sister down from me) saying that ppl who have died come back as butterflies to watch over us. (Aargh, need blogname for sister’s son, um, Scott will do for now.) Scott stared at her in confusion and said, so they’re stars at night and butterflies in the day? Possibly a discussion between various adults would have been a good starting point for that one, especially as later I got to listen to yet another version being explained. I’ve decided to keep well out of this part – my beliefs (or lack thereof) would be far too controversial, so best not to upset anyone by venturing an opinion!

Anyways, helped with various practical housework tasks, and spent the afternoon chatting with mother, who was much better today having seen her own doctor. Can’t remember whether I mentioned that she’d spent the day in hospital on Sunday, suffering from shock that was suspected to be a heart attack, but she was far steadier today, so we got to just chat, reminisce and generally spend time. Also got to see what Scott has done with the programming I showed him yesterday? sunday? (days are merging rather) Basically I downloaded Scratch and demonstrated a very simple script – by this morning he had a bat chasing a cat, though he wasn’t too happy that part of the chase was upside down, so next challenge is how to make it the right way up again.

Picked up kids from school and have come home early as I need to just chill – have got stinking headache. Wanted to actually spend time with offspring, but they wanted to garden and I just want to sit, daresay they’ll come in at some point. I’ve also been sent home with a Sportacus suit that needs some tlc – J doesn’t have needle and thread or I’d have done it there.

Right, must sort out some food – feel rather lightheaded and queasy just now, despite the fact that I did eat at lunchtime.