Not superwoman after all.

Mar 16, 2012

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This afternoon I sobbed into the washing up.

Not over blogging, lists, awards or anything online before anyone asked. I was dripping into the bowl of plates as I felt like a failure – we are likely to run out of milk before morning.

Yes, I was crying over unspilt milk.

Pathetic, eh?

No, not really. My house is a tip. The bedroom changeover I’d planned for before the big day didn’t happen because the big day happened 10 days early. The tidy up I need to do so that we can actually all move around the living room still hasn’t happened. And I wanted to go out today for a walk with tigerboy in the lovely snuggly stretchy wrap that arrived for review, but I had a sponsored blogpost to publish and I prioritised that, forgetting that dp was going out, and at that point I would be unable to.

So I didn’t get my walk to buy milk. Not that I’m fit to walk out to buy milk after yesterday – the back of my right thigh keeps going into cramp, I think from carrying the car seat various places. And tomorrow we’re out for lunch, so I’m going to struggle to fit in getting out to buy milk before that too. And my mother is coming on Sunday and I don’t have a present for her.

So, to all those ppl thinking I’m doing fine – I’m doing pretty much how you’d expect 11 days after having a baby. I have too much to do, I feel like I’m failing at most of it, and I’m a hormonal mess.

Hohum.

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Comments

10 responses to “Not superwoman after all.”

Liz Burton
16 March 2012
Oh hun. I wish I was nearer and I could come and give you a hand.
You’re NOT a failure, you’re an ace mum x
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Midlife Singlemum
16 March 2012
Tie a ribbon round tigerboy’s ….something, ankle or wrist maybe, and present your Mum with the lovely gift of a new grandson to snuggle for a couple of hours.
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NinnyNoodleNoo
16 March 2012
Oh (((hugs))) – I have to admit, as much as I’m looking forward to the new bundle here, I’m not looking forward to the knackeredness!
Surely you’re Mum won’t mind the lack of a material present, you’ve given her a new grandson 😀
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Jenny Nixon
16 March 2012
Bless you. We’ve all been there at some point. It’s such a pisser when you feel the balls you are juggling are about to fall and you’re not sure you’ll be able to catch them. You will tho x
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Allie
16 March 2012
OK, I’ve bitten my lip but can’t resist saying this. Can your partner not get the bloomin’ milk? Is there really nowhere within walking distance where he can get it tonight? No 24hr supermarket or offy or something? He could get something for your mum at the same time. And, come to that, why are you washing up? He could do that too! You’ve only just had a baby. That’s plenty of input to the family unit for a good while in my book. I made all the food and did all the washing up and other housework for several weeks after my partner gave birth because she was busy recovering and feeding the baby. I think too much is being expected of you, Jax. Apologies if I’ve overstepped the mark…
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1. Jax
  16 March 2012
  It’s mainly me doing the expecting tbh. Dp is being supportive and keeps telling me to let things go, but I just want to get them sorted. And yes, we could have got milk elsewhere but it was the planning it and forgetting things that upset me. Not even slightly rational I’m afraid.
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Lucy
16 March 2012
The ten day mark is classic growth spurt time…be kind to yourself, Jax, your mind is supposed to be focussed elsewhere atm… :o)
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Jen aka the mad house
17 March 2012
Jax, you need to be kind to yourself. You have an tiny newborn. Let the others help. The older children can wash up and buy milk. They can also ale grandma a pictures a present!
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Mummy Matters
17 March 2012
Aha, I see where the problem lies, you are a control freak like me aren’t you? Mix that with newborn mummy hormones and you’re in for a tough ride. I am a fine one to talk but give yourself a break, sit down and just snuggle with your brood. I am sure that if anyone were to come around to your house, the only thing they would be looking at are your beautiful children (especially Tigerboy). As for breakfast I’m sure you can improvise for one day, make it an adventure and have something crazy for one day.
Just because it’s the ‘official’ Mother’s Day tomorrow I am sure that your Mum won’t mind if you have an ‘unofficial’ Mother’s Day later on on when you are feeling a bit better. You can tell her that it means she is even more special because she has a Mother’s Day all of her very own. Sending big hugs ((({})))
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Sarah, Maison Cupcake
20 March 2012
Hey hun! ((((big hug!)))) I’m sure your mum will understand (or did understand) fine. These days of being impossible to get out the house will be behind you before you know it and I’m sure you’ll be gadding about with newborn in the sling. But in the meantime it’s ok to feel whacked out.
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