Milestones

Today Smallest held on to Big’s hands and walked across the room. Previously she’s refused to do that – if you try to hold her up she retracts undercarriage and you either have to carry her or put her down so that she can crawl madly away.

But today I saw a glimpse of the toddler to come as she laughed and stepped. And it was bittersweet because I love my baby, and I very much suspect that there won’t be any more. (I can’t quite give up on the idea of more, though realistically I can’t do it, can’t take that chance on more phsyical issues, even if we had the perfect pregancy and birth it’s still exhausting, and sadly I’m not getting any younger. Aargh.)

I really really love my baby. And I’m trying so hard to love the other two out there as well, learning from the carrying and the holding and the calm. And the laughter.

Smallest is a social being. Yesterday on the train she sat on Big’s knee and fed her a raisin (Big hates raisins :lol:) and then she reached forward and shared her drink with her new bear. Which was almost unbearably cute (no pun intended) but also surprising. I don’t remember (how can I not remember?) when either of the other two started playing imaginary games, but surely offering a bear a drink is imaginary?

I don’t know. Maybe I’m reading too much in to it. She is quite forward in a lot of ways, what with the drawing already (she really loves drawing) and the interaction, though no real language yet. It sounds like language. There’s been a couple of times that I’ve thought she spoke, but I think it was just babble. The hello noise is getting nearer and today she nodded and shook her head at me appropriately instead of just madly, so maybe we’re getting there.

Less than two weeks to go before she’s a year old. I can’t quite believe it. Where is the time going?

Scary.