In a bad mood.

Don’t get me wrong, I want to be at Melrose. I want to be a long way away from my work computer and with friends and children and wine. I just don’t want to have to pack, organise, tidy, wash, plan and drive beforehand. 🙁 So I’ve been in a bad mood today, made worse by the fact that Tim has suffered a sleep injury and can do nothing to help, being in rather a lot of pain, and also by the fact that the children are in pre holiday mood (over excited, uncooperative and stressed). However, I have managed to do two loads of washing (which haven’t dried yet, so may be in the dryer in the morning), make fudge with Big (we’ve the rolling out to do yet), and shop. So I got a few bits done.

Spent far too much time farting around online and then ate chocolate to cheer myself up, which instantly made me feel worse for having no self control. I’m not dieting (I don’t really do dieting) but I’ve been trying to eat meals instead of snacks and chocolate, and it irritated me to slip twice this week. I really should resist buying chocolate for myself – I don’t really like the dairy milk that Tim eats, so it’s much easier to resist temptation on that.

Also didn’t resist temptation on book buying this week, indulging in two signed Orson Scott Card books from hatrack. I got The Dragon Quintet and Magic Street, and tried to salve my conscience by buying them with the balance of my paypal account, basically money from doing surveys. Very aware that this change of jobs is going to have an adverse affect on our cash flow in the short term – hopeful that longer term plans might make it a worthwhile investment, but still stressing over it nevertheless.

Children are being horrid and aggressive to each other – think they are watching too much Batman. Might have to ban it if they can’t tone the games down at the very least when they are asked.

Bleargh. Must go and roll out fudge with Big and then send them for a bath – might as well bring them clean. Is anyone else dreading the travelling or is it just me? Why oh why are we going to a youth hostel in Scotland??