I’ve been in a bad mood for several days now. I’ve come home and ranted at Tim, who has wisely refused to argue about anything with me.
There are lots of things contributing to this. Part of it is the time of year – I don’t like miserable grey weather, and I’m seeing a lot of it. There’s the driving, which really irritates me (why do so many ppl leave their brains outside of their cars? Prize for idiocy of the week goes to the complete moron who was driving a pickup truck on the motorway with two trees in the back of it. Said trees had probably started off pointing forwards, but by this point, they were sticking out sideways and hitting the lorries either side of him.) Then there’s the work, but less said about that the better.
Today I’ve been working from home. The children have not precisely been cooperating. But we got through it. And I’ve spent the evening plotting our next life move. Expect big changes left right and centre – I’ve had enough of this. I’m bright, I have skills, I have ideas, and I’m fed up of being two steps behind at all times.
First change – I’m changing the habit of sitting up doing bugger all all night, and going to bed now. Good night all.
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6 responses to “I'm in a bad mood.”
Anger that invokes change, probably good.
BTW, you need to resend the email that tells me what to pay. That was the bit i lost 😉
Um – so is that your website?
Started that one last night Joyce, partly as a project to understand dokuwiki, have others kicking about!
Merry, I did resend, didn’t you get it?
Partners who refuse to argue are the most annoying sort!! But hope the ranting (and the not-arguing) is productive. Dokuwiki looks interesting …
Likewise hate this time of year, its grey, getting cold, dark nearly all the time. At the same time you are considered a kill joy if you dont over spend yourself into debt for things you dont want or need, and over eat yourself into spending more money in January to get thin again.
I think its the darkness that gets me most. And then the cold and the wet. Fortunately I dont have to drive to work every day so I swear at idiots and then let them go like water off a ducks back. I can see it would be difficult if you a)have children in the back and b) have a time you have get somewhere else.
Enough waffle. I’m threatening a visit tomorrow.
I suspect Tim wisely realises that you need to rant, not argue 😉 A good rant is/can be very valuable, especially if it galvanises you into doing something positive.
No one likes a workday this time of year when you are stuck inside. A friend of mine used to work in a department store; she complained she went to work/came home in the dark and spent the day under flourescent light. She hated it but always made sure she went for a walk at lunchtime and sat outside to eat her lunch (unless chucking down with rain).
In the personal development part of my counselling course, we were taught to regularly evaluate our lives by writing down the positive/negative things that happen right now and then where we want to be in a years time. Then you work out the steps to get there. A long range forcast seems, psychologically, impossible, so you only do a short range forcast ie a year, and plan small changes that are manageable. You have to be totally honest about what you can/cannot achieve. It can also help to keep a journal to record how you feel, that way monitoring any recurring themes which you can then tackle. For example: I realised not that long ago that I had spent so much of this year involved with projects external to the family which had sapped my time, leaving me little to spend with the family or for myself. Once I recognised that, I could put a stop to it.