Earlier today I tweeted “I feel like Doctor Who.”
No, I haven’t got a tardis. Or a sonic screwdriver. Nor have I developed a sudden ability to save the world. Though I’m adding that to my tofutodo list immediately ๐
Instead, at my scan at the EPAU this morning, the sonographer found a second heartbeat in my body.
It’s an utterly incredible sensation. I’d been lying there on the couch, staring up at the ceiling fixedly, trying to distract myself from the length of time the scan was taking by counting the holes in the ceiling panels. (39 by 39 which seems a very odd number. Perhaps I lost count. ) Then she turned the screen around and showed me the yolk sac, and right at the bottom of it, a little blinking item that she says is a baby.
Pause.
Stare.
Breathe again. It’s real, it’s really real. A little blinking tiny spot within my womb, a tiny life within my body. An extra heart.
And then I saw the doctor, who said they couldn’t see any reason for the bleed, and sometimes these things happen, and once a heartbeat is seen, the risk of miscarriage drops to 1 -2%, meaning my chance of carrying this pregnancy is about 97%. I was very good. I didn’t query her maths. Just took the chances she was offering me, and left with an inane grin on my face, and a letter for my GP in my hand.
So thank you world behind my screen for your kind and caring thoughts. I’m sorry for any of you I worried with my panic yesterday. I’ll try to keep it under wraps for a while at least, and not turn into a pregnancy bore.
Oh, and when I got home and we explained to the children about the second heartbeat, my son immediately said “are you sure you’re not from Gallifrey?” So it’s not just me then…
Chris says
ARGHHHHHHHH! *Dances an over excited jig and grins from ear to ear* ๐
Jax says
Grinning away here too ๐ And sniffling occasionally.
Susan Mann says
Aww that is amazing news. Congratulations. xx
Jax says
Thank you.
Julia Skinner says
Brilliant! Brilliant! I’m so pleased. I had a bleed when I was early in my pregnancy with my son having lost 3 so I know a bleed can be OK but didn’t want to mention it yesterday! Now you be a pregnancy bore – enjoy it!That way we can all share! *grins in a rather worryingly inane way*
Jax says
I’m still a little unnerved – I’ve not had a bleed in a successful pregnancy, though I know I had a cramping scare with Smallest around this same stage. Still, must keep thinking positive thoughts and being bright and cheerful ๐
camille says
congratulations ๐
Jax says
Thank you Camille ๐
The Mad House says
Bloody Amazing, yes it is. I am so, so pleased for you. So with the fact that they made out the heart beat you must be at least six weeks along. That is just fantastic news
Jax says
Yup, a bit over that they think. I’m a bit hazy on dates, hadn’t been paying that much attention! Thank you.
Midlife Singlemum says
Whenever you feel like a dance partner or a little sniffle with a friend I’ll be very happy to oblige. Lots of love – Rachelxx
Jax says
Thanks Rachel, I’ll keep that in mind ๐
Debbie says
Thought for a minute when you said a second heartbeat you were writing about twins…but have re-read and understood now. Great news!
Debbie
Jax says
eek, that would be slightly scary! Nope, just the one, and thanks.
Mum in Meltdown says
Wow that is amazing news. Have been down that road myself and know what a reielf it is to see the heartbeat!! Well done and keep well ๐
Jax says
It’s an incredible sensation – the relief is instant and overwhelming. Thank you.
mummiafelice says
Blimming fantastic! So happy for you! ‘are you sure youรรe not from Gallifrey?’ I am still giggling at that!!!
Yay!! Massive congrats Jax!
Jax says
Thanks – think Small was secretly hoping I was tbh!
Martin (bluebus) Stewart says
Just read your post. Congratulations. Exciting news.
Jax says
Thank you – it is rather.
kay wilkinson says
I did not know you were pregnant! Woo Hoo!!! I’m so very, very, pleased for you. It’s magical when you see that little heartbeat isn’t it. ((hugs)) I’m over the moon on your behalf. xx
maggy, red ted art says
Oh my! CONGRATULATIONS! Fabulous news! And so sorry to hear about the bleeding and all the worry that comes with that. Fingers crossed all is well from now on. Go you.
Big hug and lots of mushy things.
Maggy x
jay says
Oh CONGRATULATIONS! Am so pleased everything is ok. Tiny heartbeat puts you about about 7 or 8 weeks? Ahw who cares, I’m just glad you’re ok. Thinking of you all… And so very excited for you ๐
xxx
Clare Kirkpatrick says
CONGRATULATIONS!!! So, so, so pleased for you. Have been worrying about you, and delighted to hear all is well xxx
chrisotherwise says
Fantastic news Jax, thanks for sharing it!
Claire says
Another one that thought you meant twins!! Anyway, congratulations Jax, so pleased for you.
Emma says
SQQUEEEEE! Such fab news! So glad all is ok! ๐ x
Ella says
Oh how wonderful! Congratulations!! xxxx
Debbie says
Jax, this is probably really rude but I’ve just got to ask you – was it conceived in 1553?!
๐
Debbie
DaddyNatal says
Congratulations, sorry bit behind times and just playing catch up ๐
No such thing as pregnancy bore ๐ (well maybe but sure you wont be) Every pregnancy like every child is unique so enjoy and share to your hearts content.
Emma @mummymummymum says
Congratulations!! Brilliant news.
I’m so happy for you. x
Tbird says
so pleased for you Jax. here’s to a boring, healthy, totally scare free pregnancy and a lovely “Even smaller still” at the end of it
Allie says
Great! Congratulations.
Caroline says
Huge Congratulations ~ will be praying all continues to go well for you ๐
Cx
Jax says
Thanks Caroline.