which means on days like today, I’m running on a half charged battery. The hall light, with one of those sensors, didn’t switch off until after lunch. It was off for about an hour, then it turned itself back on again. It’s never really got light today, and my mood reflects that fact.
Unfortunately, my children tend to reflect my mood too. Which means that today we’ve been lost in a spiral of petty bickering and getting nothing doneness, and my todo list hasn’t shrunk at all, while we’re a day nearer to a Christmas I’m not even slightly prepared for.
Small has gone past oppositional, and is into utter non cooperation. I don’t quite know why he is so anti tidying up, but he is. We’ve had bouts of tears and wailing, arguments about whether another person can change a person’s opinions (I maintain that you can, he says you can’t, and was really very upset when I demonstrated an occasion when I had changed his opinion), and right at the moment he’s hoping I won’t notice that he’s not doing what I told him to. (That would be after I asked him politely, which often backfires and sets us off on the wrong foot – saying “would you like to” is answered correctly with no (have just watched tonight’s Big Bang Theory with a perfect demonstration of the issue in action!).)
Big has stroppiness down to a tee. Tea? T? (I’m not sure I’ve ever written that down before. Wonder which one it is.) Then we both managed to forget about her rookie lifeguard, she remembered 10 minutes before which led to hysterics complete with screaming and hand flapping while I rushed around trying to get organised. I think it’s quite impressive that she was only a couple of minutes late tbh, given that I had a semi-dressed baby to deal with before we could leave!
The baby is the baby. And deserves a post all to herself. (To follow.)
I guess what I’m trying to say is that I don’t like the darkness. I think I’m going to mark the solstice next week as the turning point in my year, and build towards the coming of the light again. And I think I’ll look into SAD lights too.
Michelle says
To a T. To a tittle. http://www.phrases.org.uk/meanings/to-a-t.html
Forcibly smiling releases positive endorphins. Cheaper than sad lights ;-). Try it for a minute and see if you feel better. (note: smile not grit teeth!). Xx
Debbie says
SAD lamps are good. Jim has one on prescription, but I’ve been known to use it (regularly, before he took it to work!!) Would definitely recommend…
Tbird says
We have a DIY Happy Lamp (it’s not sad, it’s very happy okay…..) which is 4 high output LED downlighters set into a bit of MDF. Pretty it ain’t, efective it certainly seems to be! Whole thing cost very little as it was stuff that Duke had bought to light his “office” with but decided it wasn’t going to be practical.
mamacrow says
oh glory. hugs. I must say, we are a very literal household here, i’m always quite careful to say ‘please will you’ rather than ‘would you like to’ and, to be honest, people have to be even more careful when they ask me to do something!
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