For the first time that I noticed today, I thought ‘my sister had epilepsy’ rather than ‘my sister has epilepsy’. I still wake up occasionally forgetting that she’s gone, but at some points of the day, she’s moved to my past. I’m sure that this is a healthy change, but I’m also sure you’ll forgive me the tears I’m shedding tonight.
That’s all.




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not only forgiven but aproved of, it’s against the rules to bury emotions….. hugs.
((hugs))
You know somewhere along the way I missed this event in your life and it wasn’t till we got back from J&J’s that I put 2 & 2 together and realised why you were so sad. Sorry about that – hope you’ll forgive me. I expect I might have seemed confused, if not a little cold at J&J’s, but I genuinely didn’t know!
Tears are good. It all takes time and the pain bubbles up through the shifting sands of the process. x
My sister would have been 42 this week, which is also the 30th anniversary of her death. I STILL after all this time answer the “any siblings?” question with “I have a brother and a sister, but she died a long time ago”. I don’t actively grieve any more, obviously, but there is never a day that I’m not in some way conscious that I had a sister, in the same way that if I had a limb amputated, I would never cease to be aware that I used to have something that is now missing. So in the past is not ever forgotten.